To see and experience as much and to capture them in words

Day 6 It's Cray Crew's first baby!! We're so happy for Anna! I was ecstatic as all of us were. I can only imagine how happy Anna and Mike must've been when they learned the news.  We're so excited, we've already thought of names for the baby, below are some of the suggestions: 1. Bea (yes, suggested by Bea) 2. Cray Crew 3. J Crew Eventually, the conversation lead to freezing eggs, because at this point, nobody can see marriage in our horizons just yet. We're still checking ballpark figure on how much it actually costs, although I've heard from a good friend who's a decade older (but doesn't look it, at all) that it is quite expensive. So I guess it's safe to assume that those who showed interest, eventually want to have babies. I know I do.  However, pretty recently I've been considering adopting. Largely because I'm for adopting animals. But I also want to go through those emotions of holding your baby for ...

Day 5 Inspired by Blue Roasts post earlier that quotes Winnie the Pooh, "how lucky i am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard." In the past months, I've been saying goodbyes, some permanent ones some, hopefully temporary. In the next few months, I'm expecting more goodbyes. The latest one would be my emancipation from my responsibilities as the mother of my washing machine babies, though I'm still in charge right now, soon the grace period will expire. My decision didn't come as a surprise to the management, as early as January, I've told my GM and my then boss that I will leave soon.  What was surprising was how I felt right after I handed my letter to my newest boss, who I've worked with in less than 2 months. After my conversation with him, I rushed to my car because I felt like crying, which I did. It felt like I just broke up with a lover.  I guess a good part of it is because I've poured my heart into i...

Doug's fur ball, he's been shedding quite a lot lately... Day 4 - Shedding of skin.  Last night Inka and I talked about how we feel that we've lived several lives. Every time I dive into memory lane, it's like I'm watching a different person and I think that's awesome. One of my greatest fears is, when I'm on my deathbed and look back at how I lived my life, I would see a stagnant one, lived by a routine because it was safe. This is one of my Northern Stars as I live my day to day. In the past months, I've been shedding skin to some points when it reaches pain. But Id take them any day, I'd do everything all over again, if by some magic I met my Fairy God Mother and she grants me a rewind.  I've been reminded of the silly choices I've made, like that time when I let a French guy hop onto my motorbike or that time when I missed a flight because I was too irresponsible or that time when I made the first move, or the more ...

Day 2. Let me write about the things that occupies every waking and sleeping hours. GMAT! I have never been more scared than anything. I remember being scared when I flipped over our family van and almost drove it off the cliff because I was chasing the tide for a surf sesh. I was scared at the thought of my dad getting mad at me. I didn't find it scary when the bus I was riding to cross From Vietnam to Cambodia left me in the middle of nowhere. I remember feeling excited. The feeling of excitement weighed more than fear when a rhino came running towards our direction in Chitwan. A few years ago, I’ve gotten myself in rough sea; it must be youth or my familiarity to waves that prevented me from crying and praying for my life as my other friends. My fight or flight response tilts predominantly on the flight side… Except this time, GMAT causes flight reactions, even mock exams scares me. Preparation is a good way to habituate. I shall go back to it now. OOPS, I DONT TH...

Tonight we freed ourselves from our responsibilities and talked about how life good is, in spite and despite...  I was supposed to be in Europe today, could've been the day I saw the man I've been wishing for. But decisions and commitments were made, for now I'm parking a great adventure for a different one. It feels good to know what I'm chasing after, especially when I'm trading off other dreams.  But tonight Inka and I recharged and shared magical stories. I must've done something really good to have support groups and cheerleaders like Inks and Jos, it would've been another story had they not been present. Here are some photos! Kiss kiss!     I apologize for the lack of cohesiveness of Day 3, also for the posting late. I have forgiven myself from being a mediocre tonight. 

For the longest time now, it has always been in my New Year's and birthday resolution to write once a day. And I don't remember getting past day 7, I have a journal that is 2 years old already that I haven't filled up yet! A few weeks after my birthday, I said it again... And again, I haven't written regularly in my journal. Which leads me to this, I will publish a post each day for the next 21 days! Stakes are higher when I share my words to the world, I don't commit lightly. Words when given life through written or verbal expressions are sacred - I'd like to live by this idea that I believe. Hence, I feel I have a higher chance at writing daily. I've been typing and deleting words in the past 10 minutes. Hah! This is actually not as easy as I imagined, not when I don't want to bear my all. So to convince the Doubting Me, let me write what I think I may get out of this: 1. Oh the joy of overcoming my laziness and excuses! 2. Some of my...

I caught myself  having this thought some time in January... aaand behold! I have never found myself in a ceaseless turmoil than recently, thankfully they are not grave. Just annoying because they happen really fast and I feel they hit me on my blindspot. As I slowly chew and digest them, I need to remind myself to stay calm and accept that I cannot solve them, even making sense out of them needs time. What I've noticed though, is that when I inject improvements in my life, no matter how small it is, the other aspects fall into their proper places.  This time, more than I can remember, I'm deliberate on how I respond to life - tough! Even after, what I like to think, calculated evaluation of the choices, I still doubt the decisions I've made - like a terrible episode of buyer's remorse, I am learning to live with them. Because as Alan Watts said:  "everything could've been anything else, and it will have just as much meaning. " Another consolation ...

Mid Feb and a lot has happened, things are coming in waves... (I wrote this draft last week, and held publishing it. Aaand as of this writing more waves have came in) Start of the year was wonderfully eventful, family duties and then there was India, that I couldn't find time to share my well wishes for 2017. Looking back, 2016 was pretty swell! I did a lot of the things I said I was going to do and there were lots of surprises!  I’m in awe at how my 2016 panned out, faithful to the intentions and their specific manifestations. So now, I’m giving life to my 2017 intentions. Basically, in the grander scheme of things, 2017's intent is identical to last year’s.  I’ve written my 2017 specifics and am working towards realizing them, because it has been said - nothing comes free, especially not the good stuff (or something like that), and I will not allow no less than good in my life. And so... Though a month and a half delayed, have an awe-inspiring 2017 all! I wis...