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Going back to school after more than a year of vagabonding can be overwhelming. From being mostly carefree and going with the flow, I now have commitments and deadlines to meet. With all the requirements from school and with all the logistical necessities that comes along with living in a new city, keeping track of the things I need to accomplish can be daunting and confusing. Most times I forget the things I need to do.                                                                                   Having been in the work force for almost 8 years, the past 4 of which was very demanding...

I’m the type who needs time before things sink in. Until now I do not really feel whatever feeling people who’s about to leave their old lives behind feel, and I can think of several reasons why.  Come to think of it, my default reaction when I panic is to be in a state of chill, maybe a fake calm, another irony. Like that one time when I was about to present in front of the board and international decision makers for my old company. I was so relaxed when I couldn’t answer a very important question, which led me to a more relaxed state when it snowballed into an intense line of questioning. Moving on... I’ve been hanging out with clusters of friends the past months. Last week in La Union when my friends kept on teasing me about my love stories, Inka said it best, “logistical complexities, say no more.” So I rode on the humor and said, “what if, just because I am leaving I start liking a Filipino guy.” I underestimated the wit of fate or the matrix, thinking I’m a week...

One of the greatest things that happened during my year of unemployment is the uninterrupted and leisurely time I get to spend with family and friends and the shared processing of life events that came with it. The subject that always comes up – dating life! I have restrained my dating life. In the past year, I get to understand how I have wired myself in terms of heart matters. Although I try to charge on it, as I would in surf, travel, work and every other aspect of my life, dating is the aspect that I flake out on. In my attempt not to go down the path of having my life revolve around another person, I have cultivated this mindset that I will find the love of my life as long as it is hassle-free and I will only keep the love of my life as long as sacrifice isn’t required. I have overdone it. I felt that I have caught the best fish in the sea and I let them go without a fight. A good fight I would give for a wave. In surfing, I take waves on a critical, claim “MINE!...